Im going insane... Please read.

[Ele Mantel]

I have been acting very strange and I have been making myself crazy over the past few weeks, only adding to the horror of my own insanity that lurks in my family's genes.

I have been thinking alot, for I cant do much else, I am cooped up in my house alot, doing this.

Making posts, reading little comics of fighting, all day when I come home from school.

What else can I do, I have nothing TO do, also, I have been feeling like a dick, and that I made everybody around me sad.
I try not to be a sad person, while my crazyness lurks deep within me eating my insides killing me slowly, and I will be missing more every day.

Its almost like there is nothing to live for anymore.

I come home from school, and sit infront of the computer.

Just sit there.

Im not interested in anything, really, and I cant grasp anything I try that is new.

Its like I am dead on the inside, and trying to act happy on the outside, and I dont know what to do.

I cry myself to sleep at night for many reasons, I have mood changes sometimes.

As I said before in a thread made many moons ago, I said that I have little things that make me crazy too, that is still happening, thus adding to my insanity more, feasting on my insides like rodents.
Im starting to get more understanding of sadness, but cant grasp true happyness.

I start to get more empty as everyday passes, untill the final day comes, and I am but a lifeless shell to go to school, come home, and sit, doing nothing the rest of the day, just to wake up to another rising sun feelingless.

I also have almost no friends, and I have no true friends.
I cant get through this feeling, its tearing me apart.

I think I might need help of some kind, because my mom deals with my issuses.

Stomach problems are also part of my life, I have a bad stomach dissorder(IBS).
I dont know if that would have anything to do with my mentality, but it does get pretty bad.


Tell me, what should I do?

[Ele Mantel]

firemario1 said:

Wow.
That's kinda emo.

Go outside and talk with your friends, ya fool!

Did you even read it?

[Xinxinix]

With the little friends you have, try to become closer to them, so that
you can say that they're your real friends. Go outside more, enjoy
what you have, just think of how many people have it worse than
you. You just gotta learn to talk to people more, and let people know
you more. It's probally mostly cause you're not letting them. As in
if they invite you over, you turn them down by saying "Nah, I have
something going on." That's my advice. Good luck.

Oh, and invite them over sometime, or go outside and do something... (NO COMMENTS ARE NEEDED FROM DUMBASSES)

[CaptainChip]

Play moar video games.

Ignorance is bliss.

[Ele Mantel]

xinxinix said:

With the little friends you have, try to become closer to them, so that
you can say that they're your real friends. Go outside more, enjoy
what you have, just think of how many people have it worse than
you. You just gotta learn to talk to people more, and let people know
you more. It's probally mostly cause you're not letting them. As in
if they invite you over, you turn them down by saying "Nah, I have
something going on." That's my advice. Good luck.

Oh, and invite them over sometime, or go outside and play with
them (NO COMMENTS ARE NEEDED FROM DUMBASSES)

I never get invited over.

Ever, exept by one person, this whole year.

[Xinxinix]

Then invite your friends over to your house.

[Ele Mantel]

xinxinix said:

Then invite your friends over to your house.

I consider people friends in a very light way.

If I talk to you in the hall sometimes I consider you a friend.

My very best friend I had and will ever have moved to florida.

[Maybe Might Not Be Moneybags]

Find a place that makes you feel good.
Then just sit there and think everything over.
Then a solution will come to you.

[Xinxinix]

Do you talk to him over the phone or any connection at all?

[₦ῒ↑ʁo]

i have adhd. i have alot of pint up radge inside me. and im emotional. if i get mad enough to relise that rage i could kill a man with my bare hands. cross country chatter is a bitch. i have this thought if we could just pm each other with our phone numbers but im not gonna try it.
listen to more music. go out side when its the right temperture.

[Ele Mantel]

xinxinix said:

Do you talk to him over the phone or any connection at all?

I tryed that, It worked for a little while, but I couldnt stay in touch, it is very hard for somebody who moved out of state, it just is.

[₦ῒ↑ʁo]

who wants my phone number?

[Xinxinix]

Okay I have a good idea but I don't know how close you think your
friends are. Trust me, if you talk to them in the halls they're your
friends, depending on how long you've been talking to them and
if you talk to them during classes. If you talk to them during class
then invite them over, but don't stay in your house, unless you
have soemthing good to do. If not then you want to just go
outside and walk with the person to get to know them and have
them get to know you more. Talk about how you've been in a
slouch and stuff. And if you think it may be to hard then follow
sheepshifters advice. It'll work out in the end.

[₦ῒ↑ʁo]

im your friend elementell.

[Xinxinix]

Oh, and if you're talking to someone over the phone. Go outside,
it helps out alot, instead of being cramped up in the house...

[jallo]

Nothing to rash, I have a bit of the same thing.

Make friends by acting bold at school, Have a school dress code? Wear something your allowed to wear that makes you stick out, I have navy blue on khaki, and I wear a tie. I don't nessicerially like the tie, but I wear it for fun.

I come home, and sit on the computer as well. Listen to music, grab a snack, put my feet up, and enjoy.

Feelin' like shit? Throw on some James Brown, and your favorite clothes. You'll feel good about yourself.

Go places with your friends. Starbucks, movies, where ever.

Grab a girlfriend, they will ALWAYS cheer you up.

I hope I helped you, bud.

[madvideogamer]

Go outside, smell the flowers, go to the store, browse the super market, help with the groceries, watch a movie, take a walk, give out free hugs, eat a cookie, check the pet store, get some food, make a garden, etc etc. See, theres a lot of things you can do.

[qtoa21]

You have to apply yourself more i have one question not to bring you down or anything but are you a ugly nerd if so then dont kill yourself just do what makes you happy and if you have stress grab a pillow and beat the living shit out of it i really relieves you dont rip it tho i did that(big mess) and hell get a girlfriend and call her and shit dude not to get anyone mad but try to do something off the computer go live your life learn to dance take drum lessons go be a pimp play foot ball what ever it takes!!

[nothing]

Wow...for a moment there...I thought you were actually talking truthfully...

Depression's a scorned lass indeed.

But then, it's not really a problem from the heart. It's something that vexes you. It hexes you on the inside, and leaves that BEATING organ as a warden to make sure you don't get out early.

[₦ῒ↑ʁo]

wow your right under nashville. you could drive a car up here.

[bulet]

well elementell i have that feeling sometimes too. then i sit down and think of the positive things i can do. i most of the time play games and take my rage out by killing some shit. and i come here to have fun. the mspb and all its users are your friends. like me. i found tons of friends just by going on the internet. im not advising you to be like me. i agree with others. go outside and stuff. i dont do that but thats another story.